Thursday, June 18, 2009

A Mother's Thoughts....

First, I would just like to say that I have written on here TWICE in the past couple of days...I'm trying to get better! Anyways, God has been so good to us lately (as He is always, although sometimes it's hard to see it!). In the past 3 weeks we've had tons of showings on the house~which is a huge blessing seeing as how we are moving in September (to Texas, if I haven't said!) and we NEED to sell our home. Kind of bittersweet, but I will write about that later:) The week has been unusually busy, probably because of the summer and there are TONS of military moving to this area. So, I got a little stressed on Tuesday....the realtor's wanted to come during Ethan's nap time and gave me an hour and a half window~no problem, right? Usually it wouldn't have been, however they came 10 minutes past the alloted time. Ethan was way overdue for his nap, and if you know my child he needs his naps...AND I need a break! On top of this, our house has to look PERFECT everyday just incase there is a showing. Anyone with a newborn, infant and/or toddler knows that a house can never always be clean. We are so busy with our children that if we get the dishes clean and bottles washed we are having a good day. Seriously! I might be a little dramatic right now but it was just event after event leading up to my total meltdown of CRYING! I haven't cried in quite a while...but the stress was getting to me. It was like I had to meet everyone's needs but my own, and if they weren't happy....I had to hear about it!  On top of that, Ethan was being fussy and throwing tantrums left and right...apparently, I wasn't meeting his needs :(  Finally the husband came home and I had some time away from my son ( I won't lie~every Mom needs that now and again~and it was good). Jeremiah began to tickle him and and throw him up in the air (things only Daddy's are good for  :). Ethan's laugh filled the house and just like that I was whole again. It's amazing how your child's laugh or giggle can make the biggest of messes seem so very small. Things were put into perspective and I realized "that this to, shall pass." Our house won't be on the market forever and then we can be as messy as we want :)  I soon realized why God put me on the earth and placed me in this exact stage in my life~ to love and be loved. The gift of being a wife is special indeed, but the gift of motherhood stirs my heart and has/is still transforming me into the woman that God designed for me to be. 


 My two reasons for living!

His laugh and smile just melts my heart!

3 comments:

  1. This made me tear up. I too, am absolutely LOVING motherhood, but there are those days where it's very hard to meet all of the expectations. And Olivia's smile and laugh can wash all the doubt and worry away and quickly remind me how blessed I am and to relax and just enjoy it.

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  2. Aw! Motherhood is such a joy, but we are only human :) My mom always used to say, "I'll always be the mother of elementary school children." Then in the blink of an eye, Andy and I were married. So, I'm trying to enjoy more and worry less :) Again, Congrats for Olivia crawling! I bet she is such a doll <3

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  3. I love this post, Mary-Anne. You are a wonderful mother and wife! Lots of love, Mom

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