A lot of things have happened since moving to Colorado, some wonderful and joyous & some not so wonderful and awful, but through it all I have made some amazing people who will forever be a part of my life. For this, I am grateful.....I'm starting to tear up so I'm going to sign off for now. I will talk about each of these people and will post photos (beware!! :) in my next writings.
Although I need to write about one person right now...I dreamt about him last night, for the first time in a long time.....my Charlie. Like all dreams are, this one was just weird and confusing. I'm not sure why my subconscious brought him to the surface....maybe because his birthday just passed, his date of death is next month or the fact that we are moving. Regardless of the reason, I realized how much I miss his face, his smile, his ability to still make me weak in the knees. I know that a part of me is leaving him here & the other important part is taking him with me. You would think after almost 4 years of losing a spouse I still wouldn't hurt this bad. But the pain is always with me, more present some days than others. I'm not sure what's worse: knowing that he has been gone for almost 4 years or waking up this morning thinking that he was still alive but then realizing again, that he isn't. But I am thankful to God for granting me 4 1/2 wonderful years with him, the impression of Christ that he left to me, and the unbelievable chance to love him. And I'm thankful for the memories that will always be with me....thank you, Charlie. I miss and love you!
**Thank you for listening and letting me write about him. **